today
i sleep inside my lair or prison and stare out the window
into the night
alone at last i hide inside...
deep cargo nets i trawl my seas ,
the pain is shifted pushing me deeper with the tide i roll and save ,
my mind itself it feels concave .
.i stop and pause a moment again to stare
and rejoice within its redeeming glare ,
the lights are coming guiding me home ,
the sounds of engines throttled forward ,
another rip torn in my soul
another chest another chasm that i have owned..
deeper down my trip begins ,
into the tree trunk , deeper skinned
eating away at the flesh inside ,
and natures cause it fills my mind
the more i eat the more i sleep
the deeper my roots grow into this tree.....
these things run deep while i just sleep ,
deaf and dumb to the noise of the day,
just wishing they would go away...
and further still into the core the roots start opening ,
the vents do pour ,
slipping softly anguish within
begins to surface with a nasty grin,
terrors childish born of few ,
slaps me sideways til i give in,
one hit one crime one man alone ,
a time for living seasons past
the cold sharp chill of winters last breath creeps down my spine ,
and the twinging suicide of my mind begins to recede
and old and grey with furrowed brow and sunken cheek
my life about to be done in
awake to find myself alive ,
not much left to do but time
and back to my lair my head turns now ,
a gilded prison of time and sin
slip inside the long dark mind,
a tale thats born of sin and not much left of the divine,
one dakr night my souls elastic
screaming out i m made of plastic
electric ees wriggling inside ,
catapulting me forward to take whats mine
one step forward and a dash of backwards
all spiced up with pinch of cinnamon
scribbling back and forth on walls ,
recipe is disaster, kind no master,
all diced up , remove my plaster
break the mould of my psychometry
shallow scold me i m not hectic
scold me more and slap my bottom, finger in my ass
i m cumming fortwith
slip inside my mind, see i am unkind, a mask of deception throughout the day , a dark soul throughout the night i scream inside and then i shout and fight..today is a bad day, tomorrow another soulless breath
October 22, 2017
what day is this or does it matter footsteps falling feeling battered, body broken and soul thats bent,. twisting sideways paying rent. now my mistress karma comes to collect on deals done , time thats born of a vicious son...welcome this day our daily bread, kill no one while she s giving head, kill someone the time she s not cos all i m left with is tears of snot.,
January 8, 2017
shti collapsed down , my breath cant handle ground , hanging froma tree or murder in the town, buried inside and double up in hunger, night terrors and shakes come faithfully and daily... like a leaf of weakness barely standing on on leg , the thought of just collapsing comes again and i swing my way around and let the beat roll me around
August 2, 2016
here comes the enemy here comes danger, its sat inside my head like a violent anastasia...twisting nightscreams passerby stops and sees me cry and die a little more inside .. one more day of this minds non retention, slipping to the darkness dont control my mental..
August 2, 2016
grit your teeth and tense your head brace for impact , welcome to hell
April 20, 2016
sit , smoke, breathe, beat., pulsate, twist, stimulate, shit bend, break , mate, piss sweat, toil, curse, kiss.. alienate, defile, corrupt, wit....