Am I so ugly that nobody can love me?

Met and fell madly in love with a girl on a different site like this, two years in just before I fly to see her in New York she cuts off all communication and I find out she's been using some other girls pics all along. So, please of its fantasy for you just say so, the most cruel thing you can do is tell someone you love them when you don't. That aside, I am a kind, affectionate, intelligent professional mariner, while I'm sweet and gentle generally I'm also kinky as, and while I think making love to the person your in love with is the most incredible sex ever, the playful, naughty, kinky and rough are all wonderful too. I don't really want wham bam one off encounters, I love and need connection to be a part of my sex life. So, if you have a big smile, look after yourself and have considered the possibility that someone you meet here could be not just fun but loving too then say hi, while that last girl may have broken my heart she did prove that I have weakness for American girls ☺️